Recently, I was talking with one of my doctors.

I told her I was scared.

Nervous.

Anxious. 

Not from having many seizures and a serious stroke...

I've passed all that. For me, work ethics eliminates fear and I always executed my body checklist. 

I told her I was scared to write, film, edit and share “The Drug I Used (My Epilepsy Story)” and “Give Up!” blogs. 

Before I published “The Drug I Used (My Epilepsy Story)” on facebook and youtube, I wrote some tactics, health and fitness blogs so I can deliver true values. I thought you would want the methods, strategy and master plan of how to get fit.  

When I was waiting in the hospital bed…

And I was awake and knew what was going on…

I told my sister to film me. I didn’t think it would be significant. No scripts. Just one take. I talked and it became “Give Up!”. 

My doctor listened.

She told me…

“Before, my friends and I would talk about how ‘perfect’ the bootcamp instructor is. It’s annoying and that turned us off. But seeing or hearing that someone has to deal with adversity and to overcome it... It makes that person more ‘human’, mortal and imperfect. It is motivating and exciting for us.”

Oh.

Clearly.

I. 

Was.

Wrong.

Very wrong.

My whole perspective and paradigm change. 

Working in the health and fitness industry for a long time, I thought it would be awful and dreadful to tell you that something is wrong with me. I’m fine but things happen. First, I need to take care of myself. Second, I WANT to take care of you. 

When I hit “return” or “published”...

I said, “Fuck it! Let the people know.”

At that moment…

I honestly didn’t understand the value and it was probably the most crucial point of my life.

Everything changed.

I had a lot of panic trying to tell people that I look fine, but something is wrong with me. 

It was hard but I'm glad that I have done it. 

Looking back at it now, I wish I had told my stroke and seizures stories faster and everything would have gone a lot faster. 

But here’s the thing...

At the time, when I had a stroke and I was in the hospital…

I couldn’t talk and write (type) anything and I honestly didn’t think I could in the future. 

One day actually felt like one year.

I didn’t understand stroke, seizures, headache and paralysis. 

I don’t want to think about it.

I definitely don’t want to talk or write about it.

However…

If I want to inspire you to “achieve more”...

Like I always tell my students that you're in shock or it’s hard but keep going. Good things will happen and one day, you will figure out. 

So, I have to be grateful, truthful and honest in what I published.  

For me, that was a HUGE block and resistant that was in my way. 

Those two “I’m going to let it all out” blogs, where the biggest things that let me clear out my mind. 

I went from trying to not talk about my situation to how can I infuse my situation to encourage you.  

If you’re struggling with…

Plateauing.

Steadiness.

Getting started.

Problems always come to light. 

All of us create issues or difficulties when everything is new.

If you don’t have a proven blueprint or road map and you want to design a better version of ourselves…

No matter what you think (I did this alot) you will have to…

Climb…

Destroy…

Or walk around the brick wall that will always be there.

What’s your hurdle?

What’s your barrier?

What’s your obstacle?

What’s your block?

Don’t tell me or anyone else. Just think about it.

Something you fear.

Something you’re avoiding.

Something you don’t want to deal with. 

Deep down inside…

You know what it is.

For me, just doing that ONE thing…

That small step to clear my mind…

It removes the top layer of my brick wall and now I’m happy to write about it. 

It’s hard. 

But it is harder to not do it.

Patrick Mouratoglou, who is Serena Williams tennis coach, said…

“Your greatest weakness can become your greatest strength.” 

-Arthur